Matters of the Heart :)

hello everyone :)) I've just put boyfriend to sleep thru webcam .. now, I'm gonna update my blog before going to bed .. well, tomorrow's my check up, and I think I'll be going there alone .. boyfriend will be working .. it's ok .. i understand that he's bz .. boyfriend told me what he felt earlier on .. ayang, I'm not like what you think ok :) I love you .. and only you .. I appreciate what u've let out just now .. and I do appreciate all the things that u've done for me .. we've learn to open up to one another .. and we're taking things in a positive way :)) like how u reacted when I told you what I felt the other day .. remember ? I do appreciate that u atleast tried not to do the things that I don't like :)) atleast we know that the level of respect we have for each other is there .. I'm happy that now, we settle things in a rational way .. unlike in the past .. u know how we used to quarrel rite :)) hehe ! klakar tau ingat2 balek .. but then, those experience are stepping stones for us to build a better future :)) we'll take things slowly and surely, we'll achieve what we want .. I seriously can't wait to start working and help u out .. atleast kalau I dah start keje, everything will go smoothly .. insyallah :)) have faith in God love and I'm sure God will help us out :)) for now, we just concentrate on our baby .. in 5 days time, it's our 1st year anniversary :)) time do fly I must say .. but then, we've gone thru all kinds of SHIT .. haha ! yet, we remained strong .. alhamdulillah :)) ayang, don't stop praying to God, for the baby's future, for our future .. I love you .. always .. like I said, I wanna grow old with you :)) we're turning 22 soon .. and we're becoming parents soon ! haha ! don't let others bring us down .. we'll shine thru ayang :)) don't worry .. you're not useless .. I love you for who you are, not WHAT you are .. you are a responsible father to your daughter :)) because I know that .. your daughter's needs are more important than urs .. u've shown that ayang .. and I know ur sincere in every single thing you did for me .. don't belittle urself and think that u're useless love .. I witnessed every single thing you do for me and your daughter .. and I thank God for having you in my life .. for being sincere, faithful and honest to me .. the Khairul Izam I see now is not the Khairul Izam I see in the past .. you're a changed person now .. and I'm proud of you .. I'm not ashamed to blog in here that you're a changed person now, even if we've made ample of mistakes in the past .. so ayang, don't ever ever think that u're a useless person okay .. I love you and I'll always be there for u, thru thick and thin .. kite susah and senang same2 ok ayang :)) it's time for me to sleep .. remember, I love you ;) gdnite ayang !

Everything Done :))

Okay, its already past midnight, but I'm still not asleep yet .. waiting for boyfriend to call me :)) Today, me, boyfriend, kimie and acin went shopping for our baby's stuff .. from harbour front to IKEA (Tampines) and lastly, Mustaffa Centre .. Everything settled on my side .. Such a tiring day I must say .. with the 'Braxton Hicks' contraction that comes along the way .. OMG ! it's really killing me ! and I wonder what it's like to have the REAL contractions .. hah ! ni baru practice nye contraction for our muscles :)) well, just wait and see ! So, after that, we went back at around 11 plus I guess .. I was super duper extremely TIREDD !! and till now, the contractions are still lingering around my abdomen area ! how am I supposed to sleep :(( and ...... today is our hamster's 1st Monthsary !! :)) Happy Monthsary Hammies !! please behave yourself and don't breed too soon okayy :)) or else I will have a handful of babies to take care of ;) I'm glad that the hammies are back to normal .. hair already grown :) tomorrow, I'll just be relaxing myself .. too much walking today .. too much strain on my backbone .. so, boyfriend and I will just relax ourselves :) Okay guys, I guess I'm gonna tuck in real soon .. after putting boyfriend to sleep :)) thank u for everything ayang - from ur ayang and ur babygirl :)) we love you ! ;) Gdnite Bloggers !

ILoveYou

Specially for Boyfriend :)

I don't always tell you

how much joy you bring

it means more to me

than anything

I don't always tell you

that the love you give

brighten all the days

that I live

I don't always tell you

what's in my heart

that you are the most

important part

I don't always thank you

for the many things you do

or tell you how much

I really love you :))

Ohh Myyy Goddd !

I didn't know what I did to my blog :( I wanted to change the background, but ended up deleting the songs !! NYAWEE !! help meeee !! what am I supposed to do now :( I dun wanna change any further and resulting in deleting the whole blog ! hah ! well, it's been a while I updated my blog .. alot of things to be settled :) and guess what ! I'm off from tag !! wuhooooo !! Went to JB on the Saturday night .. Met boyfriend yesterday, and went back at 12 am .. hahahaa ! balek kene marahh .. but, I did have fun ! boyfriend, iloveyou :) ok, now, im looking forward for this weekend :)) gonna buy baby's stuffs !! I'm soooooooo excitedd :) then, i'm looking forward for our 1st yr anniversary, followed by our 22nd birthday, and lastly, MY DELIVERY ! Goshh ! T.R.A.U.M.A !! hahahaa ! hoping that everything's gonna run smoothly *cross fingers* well, boyfriend isn't home yet .. I'm going check up this coming Wednesday :) I posted this at facebook today .. " trust is something u gotta gain .. I've learnt not to share my problems with people that's isn't close to me .. because, at the end of the day, every human being will know ur problems :)) The handful of people that can be trusted are ur family members, husband/wife, soulmates, best friends whom u trust and lastly, GOD :)) I've learnt it the hard way in the past .. regretted doing that .. frens, dun trust anybody .. becoz, everybody have thier own motive when they wanna help u .. especially, when the help comes from a guy :)) boyfriend, im sorry to do that in the past :)) because now, im comfortable relating to u :)) iloveyou ! ok, im done blogging for today because boyfriend's coming home sooonnn !! gdnite all :))

Embarking on writing a book :))

Good morning peeps ! I gotta wake up early today becoz I need to go for my counselling at PPIS :)) So, what happened this morning was, my counsellor asked me whether I am comfortable writing about the journey of my life :)) So to say, my life story before going in to prison till today .. I've got no confidence in doing it, but i told myself, why not do something different and try this out .. I gotta brush up on my English once again ! Haixx ! From today till next month, I have to complete chapter 1 of my book .. haven't even thought of a tittle yet .. any recommendations ?? ohh my, there's alot of things to be done and completed by next month *sigh* for the editing part, my buddy, Arai, will be helping me out *smiles* her english is SUPERB !! and I simply love her vocabulary knowledge :)) Yesterday, boyfriend went back early and we talked on the phone for hours *smiles* iloveyou ! :)) I'm left with 9 MORE days to end my tagging !! OMG ! I can't believe it .. I've waited patiently for 1 yr 3 mths to end this misery of going back on time :)) Ok, now I'm gonna Google on how to go about writing a book .. It may be easy as it seems, but, I guess, I should be prepared for the worst :)) I've already confirmed the people going to Marina Bay Sands .. everyone is excited ! haha ! I'm excited too :)) it's gonna be a BLAST with all the crazy people !! ok peeps, gonna start on my writing and some other things :)) I'll update if I do have time to do so .. till then, I love my boyfriend :))

Happy 11th Monthsary Love

Happy 11th Monthsary Love :)) Here's a poem made for you !

I want to spend my whole life.. Only with you..

A life where there is just love and love around..

A life where we share our joys and sorrows lovingly..

A life where we shed tears for each other smile..

A life where I remain in your arms forever..

A life where our sweet dreams and hopes never end..

A life where we are blessed by everyone..

A life where little flowers will blossom and spread its scent of joy all over..

A life where we care for each other's feelings..

A life where love means worship..

A life where God himself dwells in our sweet home :))

I Love You, now and forever :))

Hamster Obsession

Hello! Hello! :))

I'm kinda tired today .. but overall, an enjoyable day spend with boyfriend :)) our plan was to go to Sim Lim Square to purchase a lappy for him, but then, due to our obsessiveness of HAMSTER, we went to Yew Tee Point and surveyed the hamsters there :)) We spend about nearly 2 hours in that particular shop ! Orang kedai tgk kite pon bosan agaknyer .. haha ! and guess what, my boyfriend sempat pegi toilet to pass motion !! hahaha !! Bau taik2 hamster agaknye :)) So, at the end of the 2 hours spend, of course we will purchase something .. Boyfriend get himself another hamster .. it's a female .. and now, he got a new girlfriend to take care of :)) but make sure he dun neglet me, or else, i'll squeeze the hammy !! haha !! We also bought the bathing sand for our hamsters :)) and I can tell u, shopping for our clothings is MUCH MUCH more easier than choosing what to get for our pets .. seriously :)) When we got back to my place, boyfriend told me to put them together while I pack all the items needed for his girlfriend .. They were running away from each other, but ended up so called 'kissing' ! HAHA ! Soon, they were quarrelling, and boyfriend acted so 'FATHERLY' and scolded them ! hahaha !! Now I noe how my boyfriend will scold my kids in the future :)) Overall, a fun experience having a pet :)) So now, im spending my time with my hammy and boyfriend with his new 'girlfriend' ;) Im gonna bring hammy out tomorrow .. maybe to nyawe's place :)) or else we'll be meeting Hidayahh :) Ayang, it's our 11th monthsary this coming mondayy :)) 11 months and more to go ayang :)) I guess i'm gonna end here for today .. tired, tired, tired :) Gdnite peeps !